Finally finding joy today through some self-nourishment. Today hasn’t been an easy day. My daughter (who likely will be diagnosed with sensory processing disorder soon) has had a rough day. It’s been non-stop anxiety freak-outs & struggle.
Sadly, I haven’t been my most empathetic, loving, patient self with it all, mostly because I’ve been battling my own demons (anxiety & depression). My battle with these demons has been going on so long that it just seems normal. And truly, I’ve come so far in handling it that it’s typically a non-issue. However, there are still dark days like today where it’s difficult to choose health, hope, & happiness. Years ago it took massive amounts of medication to help me choose out of the darkness. I’m so grateful for all that I’ve learned & all that has healed within me that my reality now is so much brighter.
Appreciating more & more that when we have the courage to show up for life & bring our brilliance forward, it means getting in the ring with our demons daily. And days like today bring on the fear that this may be the day that I lose the fight.
This quart of juiced greens & ginger mark a huge victory for today. After having been on the couch most of the day, barely able to function, I finally found the strength inside to choose back into LIFE. To choose to care for myself; to show up for ME. To show up for TODAY, rather than the ever-tempting “someday.” I also put on some of my favorite essential oils, which helped SO MUCH.
These courageous acts may not seem like much to the average person, but to anyone who has battled their demons or who has waged war with anxiety, depression, bipolar, etc., you can empathize.
Praying for those of you who are in the depths of the darkness to also find some hidden strength within today. To find the courage to choose LIFE, even when life isn’t easy to choose right now. My heart goes out to you. I know the pain. I know the struggle so well. You have brilliance within & the world needs it.
Cheering for your victory today & beyond.